I wish I had some wonderful heartfelt thing to say this time.
Something that I thought about forever, and am sharing with you to help stimulate thinking, but also, I have nothing.
I have some understandings about myself though.

I realized that I have control issues, as many of us might.
I realized that I cannot control my life, so I control as much as I can. You know?
I have to open my own doors. I feel like I have to do everything myself. I am very stubborn.
I think that i don't like people opening my doors because in the past no one has ever offered.
People have always been asses.
Always.

Also, when people say they will be here at ten to pick me up, and they are late. I freak until they get here. Or just, when they say they'll call. Or something. I freak out, no matter who it is.
That's it.
I can't stay focused on this blog, so I'm just going to publish it right now.