Who knows

I'm pretty much sick of people who are all "I'm shit! No one can save me. I'm committing suicide right now!"
They don't understand how other people view them or how much them not being there would hurt everyone. At the same time, I have love for these types of people, I want to help them, I want to cry with them, I want to fix them.
I know you can never fix anyone, but I really feel like I can. When people tell me that they feel like that, sometimes I just feel like crying for them. No one understands though, they say I cry too much.
Whatever, at least I am in touch with my feelings. Or maybe it's just the opposite. Maybe I'm not and I'm really hiding them. Who really knows?
Julian thinks he's got me all figured about, but he doesn't. No one does.
Not my best friend, not my youth pastor, not my parents.
I'm so exhausted. I never get enough sleep, and again, tonight, for the millionth time, I won't get enough sleep. I need to shower, I didn't even read from my Woll Reader.
I just had to let some of this out.
I really feel bad about thinking this, but usually, I feel like people say that they are depressed and going to commit suicide for attention. I know it's not like that in all cases, but sometimes the way they just drag it all out, it seems ridiculous.
If you were really going to do it, you'd do it, not tell everyone so that they'd know.
They don't have the guts most of the time.
I wouldn't blame them though, who knows what is on the other side of life? No one.
No one at all.
If you are thinking about it though, remember that it's not you that you're hurting, it's all the people that love you. That at one point cared about you, and maybe still do but are ignoring you to teach you a lesson.
Remember that there was a purpose for you to be on this earth, there was a significant other for you, there was a job, a family, a life, all for you.
All planned out.
And even if not, it's unchartered.
Explore it, make a new life for yourself.
Ending your life young is not right, wait until you become of age, and move out.
Then you can decide whether life is worth living.
There are reasons we are all put on this earth, reasons we are put in the situations we are put in, and reasons we know the people we know.
Think about it.
Think about what you say.
Think about how you act.
To the people who love you, to the people you encounter.
I bet you that you make some sort of difference in their lives.
If you died, who knows how they would feel.
Who knows who would have no life because of you.
No one.
Think about everything before doing it.
-Your blogger.